Love v/s Attraction!

A sweet kind gesture, a warm smile, and a lil more attention and we gals fall flat on that cute guy we have always looked at from the corner of our eyes! But we gals, we better beware! Not always, these cute looking guys are “in love” no matter what they say and claim.

There is a very easy guide I have come up with, that shall surely help you distinguish between the guys you hand around with loves you or is it merely Time Pass. Watch your step dahlings, you might else end up being hurt.

This is what GUYS do in different phases i.e. Love and/or Time Pass:

Love: will call you with your name usually, unless in a very mushy mood

Time Pass: will never take you real name unless there is fight. From shona to baby to sweetie = all of it, is you!

Love: Limited respectful PDA

Time Pass: PDA knows no boundaries (ofcoz he doesn’t really care)

Love: would insist on meeting your friends, to know you more!

Time Pass: would insist on meeting your (female) friends only and would start to flirt with them instantly (esplly the pretty ones)

Love: would be interested in knowing everything you do through the day!

Time Pass: would be interested in knowing what you doing when you are talking and when the next meet can happen!

Love: he’d have a choice in seeing you in a certain attire / get up and shall love some of them more than the others

Time Pass: he’d like everything you wear and would fanatically like every picture you put up on FB, no matter however unlikable it is!

Love: would want to hear your voice once a day at least, no matter how hectic the day!

Time Pass: would be around only when they need someone to talk to!

Love: would be on his toes to make you meet his family (At least some members, if not all at a time)

Time Pass: you wouldn’t even know his family details – meeting is a distant dream (yours) nightmare (his)

Love: would love to talk to you, listen to you, and spend quality time with you

Time Pass: would only love being hanky-panky around you

Love: physical intimacy comes along naturally as comfort level increases

Time Pass: emotional blackmailed physical intimacy – making it the yardstick of comfort level (the most dangerous one, don’t EVER fall for it)

These are the basic indicators...else every word he utters and every move he makes can be measured -observed and judged...so when it is a new relationship, please keep you eyes, ears, mind and GUT feelings' switch open ....to avoid getting miserably hurt...

WRECKED!!!!!

Is being alone the only way out?

Sometimes a loud “yes”

Is what my heart and mind has to shout!

Knowing not what tomorrow holds,

Fear wrecks my world,

Making it go haywire in manifolds!

I take a sneak-peak in the past horrors,

It gives chills down my spine,

Making me averse to all the forthcoming unknown terrors!

So I decide to be all by myself,

Not putting anything at risk,

I decide to be my own imp – my own elf!

The beauty of love is a long lost theory,

Today’s reality holds nothing pleasing,

In love’s name – it’s all a mockery!

The music now is just a mere haunting sound,

The melodies have all faded away,

Happy – nice – lovely things have rotated 360 degrees around!

The rain no more gives a feeling so soothing,

Raindrops now instead burns my skin,

Nothing of the magnanimous nature to me is now smoothing!

It all falls hard on me,

It all chases me and hunts me down,

It all burns me to ashes,

It all crushes my very being,

It takes away from me – all that I have ever cherished; all that I have ever nurtured; all that I have ever known to be mine!

I stand here,

Alone

Shattered

Aimless

With the last wish,

To become one;

With the almighty,

Who is the Supreme Being – the divine formless!

                       

Friendless Phase of life!!!

i have always been someone who has believed that nothing can ever be more divine than friendship and no one ever can be more important than friends, apart from parents of course... i am always up for anything when it is about a friend... i don't mind taking a few steps behind in life, if that does any good to a dear friend... i love walking those extra miles for them... its not a burden... i love doing that coz i truly do believe that i am nothing, really, without these people called "friends"!!! they make me who i am today --- they are the people with who i am crazy all the time being myself and yet being sure i am not being judged, but instead loved, just the same or more...!!!

but may be, i think now, that i am wrong!!! while i was being crazy and i was being myself, i was closely judged! i was not being loved but was being watched and observed and analyzed! and consequently things were calculated! this world is all about Profit and Loss these days!!! only me and some rare species like me live still in a primitive era where somethings are beyond Profit and Loss / Winning and Losing / Possessing and Abandoning!

Even with a broken heart, i have given strength to a friend who felt weak!

Even with frozen tears in my eyes, i have made sure that a friend has that smile glowing!

Even with never ending miseries in my life, i have tried to share a friend's pain!

Even with shaking feet - trying to be firm on the ground, i have held a friend's hand making sure s/he doesn't face a fall!

Even with a broken back bone, i have watched a friend's back so that s/he doesn't refrain from being out there and trying!

And i was proud of myself ...for being a friend to someone in its true spirit...

But today, on a lonely evening, while tears were streaming down my face and i had no one to talk to .... no one to hold ... no one who could understand my pain... who could see how helpless i am feeling while being in immense despair.... no one who could give me a new hope -- a word of encouragement to hold on -- or may be just hold my hand and smile,

I realized i was such a fool!!!!

I realized i was living in a wrong era!!!!

i realized my fantasy world doesn't exist where friendship is above everything and friends mean more than anyone else...

This world is way too beyond my idea or idealistic friendship where being there for a friend, when they need you is the basic foundation for friendship!!!

In this age, friends are for hanging out, going shopping together, watch movies, eat out or may be exchange a few things --- its so not about sharing life, caring for the other more than oneself, loving unconditionally, giving away without wanting to take....

And the worst part is, i have been there all the while for a few friends in the worst of their times....and they disappear outta my life, as soon as the bad times end and the good ones begun...!!!!

This Valentine's Day, made me to realize a lot of things and many truths unveiled themselves....

However long my FB friend list is or my mobile contact feed is, my heart has barely any names on its list of "genuine friends"!!!!

I dont wanna boast about how good a friend i am...but i know one thing for sure, i dont deserve this loneliness --- i dont deserve this Friendless Phase of Life!!!!

I HATE IT --- & I HATE MYSELF for being such a DUMB FOOL!!!!