Sunday, July 29, 2018

DEPRESSION

Depression is a strong word. Very strong. But in today's world perhaps we have lost its meaning. As if our entire perception has gone down the drain.

A little trouble to get by and we say we are 'depressed'.
One wrong step towards the goal and we feel we are 'depressed'.
That crush din't mirror our feelings and hell we are slipping into a huge 'depression'.
An argument we din't expect (with a loved one, with the manager, with a friend) and we sink in the seat feeling 'depressed'.
A cherished dream's wings are jaded and we want to run and hide...why? of course, because we are depressed.

If only depression was just that. If only....
All of the above are unpleasant feelings but they all are called either RAGE, ANGER, ANXIETY, BITTERNESS, FRIGHT, FEAR, HELPLESSNESS, NERVOUSNESS or STRESS etc....

Depression is a whole lot bigger than all these. it bears much more to it. Depression is not something you 'slip into' just like that, nor something you can get out of easily. Depression is a trap that lures you in meticulously and gradually and not until it has its claws deep inside you - tearing you apart do you actually realise the horrifying truth - that maybe you are depressed.




Depression breaks people, not just their dreams. Depression haunts people - much worse than a one off nightmare. We are only belittling the depths and horrors of depression by associating it with every sad and distressful event.

Somethings can be tremendously heart wrenching and make you cry out loud day in-day out but still not necessary it is synonymous to the dark feeling of depression. It really is sad to see depression becoming a 'fad'. Almost everyone is glamorising it - glorifying it in the process of raising awareness for it. It's sad to see people using it for moment in limelight - for a fraction of fame. Like if you say you are depressed, it means everything in life is a scary mess and that you truly need all the sympathy and attention in the world. Whereas in reality, i believe, the people who are truly depressed are lonely and the feeling of not being able to tell anyone how they really feel is eating them alive. Those who have truly 'suffered' with depression know way too well how tormenting it is. It's a dark dark place. A dungeon that has no sliver of hope or ray of light shining far away. It's infinite darkness and the only smiles are the fake one plastered on their faces to fool everyone around them.

It certainly isn't a feeling one can openly share. Party because of the lack of awareness for it and partly because of too much of it, so much so that these days depression is no longer a sanctuary of demons but just another 'get on with it' feeling which no one seems to take on seriously. And because not everyone actually 'suffers' from it - they can never put themselves in others' shoes to gauge the magnitude of its intensity. No one can....

That's the simple but the bitter harsh truth.