And so.... finally, this is it!
Well, isn't it obvious why i am writing about this? Yea...i am married...happy to my heart's content and all that roll...! But that doesn't change one bitter truth.. Marriages are tough! and mine just got tougher coz i moved countries rather continents in less than 15 days of my marriage and here i am ... from India the land of chaos to England...the land of noiseless creepy silence!
My friend says that i am living in a "postcard" and that even if i send a picture, taken from a totally non professional cell camera, it looks so beautiful as if it were a postcard or a painting...which is well *deep breath* true!!!!
this place is extra ordinarily pretty and i love it that way but hello...this is not my land..not my country...not my people...not my language (well in a way it is but i miss talking in Hindi / Gujarati ) and ugggrrrhhhh SO SO SO SO not my weather...!! So my marriage becomes perfectly difficult... And thanks to being in a new country, Krishna Dasani - Advocate Gujarat High Court, here is jobless!!!!! which is so tough to swallow...it cuts like a knife...really does!!!
Anyway that's the country bit...but on personal front too, there is so much...living with someone under the same roof and sharing everything you could possibly imagine is not quiet easy... even in hostels and shared apartments, there are many things that aren't to be shared...but here, in a marriage, you gotta share everything..which initially is pretty tough no matter how madly you are in love!
In my case, well, we are both goddamn headstrong and at no cost would give up forget giving in!! And of course we both have our silly mood swings that keep coming on unexpected visits. Actually, its not the big things that bother that much, its the tiny things...those tiny things that irritate you and sometimes make you feel like you wanna jump off the cliff rather than be here....with all this...!!!
But hey....its worth it...at the end of the day when you think of the pros and the cons of it, you are sure in your heart that the pros certainly weigh much much more than those tiny lil things...
When the night falls and I am in his arms...safe and warm... I know that nothing really is as important as us being together...at that moment, nothing matters...no weather, no language, no joblessness, no compromises, no adjustments...nothing...nothing at all...coz at that moment what matters is that I am not alone...